“How long am I going to beat my head against the wall, getting all excited, getting my hopes up every time he looks at me? I’m like a bad joke. I get stepped on, I come back for more. I get shoved aside, I come back again. What the hell am I doing waiting for him? I have to get it through my thick head that it’s just not going to happen.”—Laura Wiess (How it Ends) (via heartspang)
“Almost everything—all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure—these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”— Steve Jobs (via quote-book)
I’m quickly learning that the worst thing about college, especially so far from home, is being separated from the things that meant the most to me - defined me, even. It’s weird, I’ve noticed new things are what define me now, things that never mattered to me as defining qualities.
this introspection is probably just brought on by shitty weather and midterms…